{"id":1758,"date":"2024-06-26T21:15:00","date_gmt":"2024-06-27T01:15:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/?p=1758"},"modified":"2025-09-10T16:49:48","modified_gmt":"2025-09-10T20:49:48","slug":"motherhood-a-back-and-forth-tug-of-the-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/?p=1758","title":{"rendered":"Motherhood: A Back and Forth Tug of the Heart"},"content":{"rendered":"
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Will I always want more babies?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oh yes, probably so.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I miss being pregnant?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oh no, that was miserable.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I wish my babies would stay little forever?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oh yes, my heart aches every year on their birthdays.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I want to be sleep-deprived?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No, I actually enjoy sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I wish they’d let me hold them forever?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Oh yes, I love those snuggles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I love the tantrums and tears that seem to come from nowhere?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

No, and I’m still learning to be patient in the midst of all the crying.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I rely on Jesus even more now that I’m a mom?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

You better believe it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I love motherhood?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Without a doubt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Do I love every moment of motherhood? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

If I\u2019m being honest, no. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Would I change any of it?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Not for a minute.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s a back and forth tug of the heart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Motherhood is funny like that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Will I always want more babies? Oh yes, probably so. Do I miss being pregnant? Oh no, that was miserable. Do I wish my babies would stay little forever? Oh yes, my heart aches every year on their birthdays. Do I want to be sleep-deprived? No, I actually enjoy sleep. Do I wish they’d let me hold them forever? Oh yes, I love those snuggles. Do I love the tantrums and tears that seem to come from nowhere? No, and I’m still learning to be patient in the midst of all the crying. Do I rely on Jesus even more now that I’m a mom? You better believe it. Do I love motherhood? Without a doubt. Do I love every moment of motherhood?  If I\u2019m being honest, no.  Would I change any of it? Not for a minute. It’s a back and forth tug of the heart. Motherhood is funny like that.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1759,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"nf_dc_page":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[37,2],"tags":[28],"class_list":["post-1758","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-blog","category-motherhood","tag-mom-life"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/courtneydevich.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/06\/motherhood-is-funny-like-that.jpg?fit=1581%2C2048&ssl=1","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1758","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1758"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1758\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1760,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1758\/revisions\/1760"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1759"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1758"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1758"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/courtneydevich.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1758"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}