He is God, and I Am Not

Humbleness. 

That’s what mental illness can do to a person. 

That’s what happened to Job when he went through depression. 

Elijah when he experienced depression and wanted to die.

David when he faced anxiety and depression. 

All of them were reminded of their humility and humbled themselves before the Lord. 

They all said, “Yeah, okay, I can’t do this all by myself. I need you, God.” Or they said, “Your way, not mine.” 

Don’t get me wrong, mental illness is a war of the mind. It spews lies at you and makes you start to believe those lies. It’s the hardest battle I’ve ever fought. 

But at the same time, it’s what makes me rely on God every day. 

Without Him, the lies would win.

Without Him, the depression would overtake and suffocate me. 

Without Him, the anxiety would cripple me and make life unbearable. 

He sustains me and He reminds me that I am human. A flawed, broken human with an imbalanced brain. 

And so, I humble myself before the Lord. 

Because He is God, and I am not.