God Knew I Needed You

I didn’t know I needed you. 

I’ll be honest, I didn’t know if I had it in me to have another baby. 

My hands were full. 

My mind was overwhelmed with it all. 

I didn’t think I could handle another child to have more anxiety about.

I wasn’t sure if there was any more room in my heart. 

I had my doubts, that’s for sure. The children I already had, they seemed to be enough. Our family seemed full. 

I didn’t know I needed you . . . 

But God knew I needed you. 

He knew, before I even did, that you were destined to be a part of our family. 

He knew your name before I ever even knew you would exist. 

He knew your siblings would love you and that you would complete our family. 

He knew. 

God knew . . . 

And how grateful I am that His ways are better. 

How grateful I am that I may have plans in my heart, but it’s the Lord’s purposes that will prevail. 

How grateful I am that there is–and always will be–room in my heart for you. My love will never waver for you. 

How grateful I am that even though I didn’t know I needed you . . .

God knew I needed you.