You Were His Before I Ever Dreamed of You – And He Loves You More

I dreamed of you before I met you. 

I pictured little curls that would form at the small of your neck. 

I wondered if those eyes would be a light blue like your father’s or if when I looked at you, I would see myself and see brown eyes. 

I imagined those first few steps and how you’d walk to me and the tears of joy and sadness that I would cry. Joy because of this milestone and sadness at how quickly time moves. 

I dreamed of your giggle and the sounds of your laughter. 

I wondered if your hair color would be a reddish brown like mine or if you’d be more blonde like your dad. 

I pictured our days of playing together and watching you grow. And I pictured our nights of cuddling as I rocked you to sleep, holding you so tight. 

Before I knew you, I had a picture of you in my mind and, baby, you sure outbeat every possible scenario I ever dreamed of. 

But before I knew you, years and years before I even dreamed of you, you were already being dreamed up by someone else. Before you were even in my womb, God was setting a plan in motion for you. 

He knew the exact color of those eyes and that hair. 

He knew the sounds of those giggles and the wobbles of those first few steps. 

He sketched everything out that would eventually be all of those moments that were just wonders to me. 

He dreamed you up before you were even a thought in my mind. 

You were His before you were ever mine and when I think about how much I love you, gosh, it’s a love that I never could’ve imagined. I love you so much that it hurts but then I remember, I didn’t love you first – He did. 

And as hard as it is to imagine, my sweet child, He loves you more.