My Anxiety Sometimes Causes Me to be a Bad Friend

My anxiety sometimes causes me to be a bad friend. 

If it’s been a while and you haven’t received a response to that text message, well, it’s because I’m anxiously overthinking how to respond to it.

If I’ve dropped the ball and let you down in some way, it’s because my anxiety has me avoiding something that’s making me anxious. 

If I’m awkwardly silent and the conversation isn’t going anywhere, it’s because I’m rehearsing the conversation in my head and trying to figure out what to say.

If I’ve canceled plans with you or have told you I can’t make it, it’s because my anxiety has me on edge and I just can’t handle one more thing. 

If I’ve gotten a little snappy, it’s most likely not you. It’s my anxiety rearing its ugly head towards you. 

And maybe, just maybe, if you’re a friend who also has anxiety then I know you get it. 

But if you’re a friend who does not understand, then I pray you’ll give me some grace. Don’t give up on me as a friend. 

I’m just a woman struggling with a mental illness. 

Who is in need of an understanding friend to help a girl out. 

Prayers are always welcomed and thank you for loving me as I am.